Mixed Feelings
The Laramie Project has ended. I am now just a few days away from the end of my second show and the final round of the festival. On one hand, I’m relieved because I just want it all to be over.
Huh. There isn’t another hand. Usually a statement like that is followed with “On the other hand” and an opposing argument. I don’t have an opposing argument. I just think that I want it all to be over.
While I’ve met some lovely people, I haven’t felt a deep connection in this cast. That is truly disheartening as I grew very close to some of the women in my first show, and I’m feeling quite far away from everyone else. It’s hard to trust each other on stage and there is tension building everywhere.
There is a woman who may end up beaten in the parking lot soon. People are getting very annoyed. The whole thing is making me nuts.
The Laramie Project was an odd experience. While I love being on stage, I did not get the rush of enthusiasm I had hoped for. Even the applause was disappointing. There was no feeling of intense uplifting. I’d do it again, because I felt that show was important, but I would go in with very different expectations.
I am sorry I’ve been so down lately. Doing two shows has proved to be a bit more difficult than I had thought. I overestimated myself. Without the right motivation, the shows have been draining. I look forward to next week when I can finally stop and catch my breath.
That said, I fully intend to go out for the next available show. I miss the fun of a good show. Please send out good thoughts while I work through the end of this production.
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November 11th, 2007 at 10:07 pm